Katie Jo

There is this girl that I know from the nest. Her name is Katie Jo and here story is a sad one. Here is her blog if you want to read up on her http://tinyurl.com/53rt89
Everytime I go to her blog to read up on how she is doing I feel guilty. Guilty that she has to go through so much stuff, and because I sit here and I complain about the little things, and than I think of Katie and I feel like such an ungrateful person. She has been through so much, but yet she still has faith, she is still so positive. I feel so sorry for her, She is such a wonderful person. She seriously makes me want to be a better person! I wish that no one would ever have to go through what she is going through. But her faith is amazing. She honestly saved my faith. I was slipping in my faith I was distant from God, and than she starting writing in her blog and I saw the love that she had for God. It was like a light turned on. She brought me back from a cold and lonely life. I pray for her everyday and I have faith that God will get her through this and that God has great plans for her!

So disappointed

So since I was laid off in May we now have no medical insurance. Which means that TTC will have to be put on hold for at least three months. I just found out that one of my friends who I was trying to be pregnant with at the same time is pregnant. I am so happy for her, but I am so sad because I don't think it is going to be easy for us to get pregnant, so I really don't think we will be able to pregnant together, and it makes me sad. I will admit I am also a little jealous, I want nothing more than to be a mother. I know my time will come, I guess I just need to learn to be patient. I just feel like there is this big empty space in my heart, that won't be filled till I am a mother. I will start getting benefits again in August. So there is light at the end of the tunnel, when I last talked to my OB he talked about putting me on Clomid to help my LP lengthen. I can't wait till August!! In August it will be 10 months of actively trying, minus the three we couldn't try. I hope cycle #10 is the one!!