Our First "Official" Appointment

Here is a pic of our little miracle!!!


The appointment went well, I was nervous the entire time. Once he started the ultrasound and I saw how much bigger our little gummie bear was just from two weeks ago, I was amazed!! I am so so thankful to God for everything that he is doing! He is making this little miracle inside of me and I am just in awe. I never really understood the meaning the "miracle of life" till now. It truly is a miracle when you think about all that is going on!!! I have gained four pounds so far and the doc said that is perfectly fine for where I am. I was surprised I had gained anything cuz of all the throwing up I had been doing. Guy was so funny, once the doc told him the heart beat which was around 140-145bpm; he got all excited because of the old wives tale that say that if a baby's heart beat is 160 or above it's a girl, and that if it's 140 or higher its a boy. LOL silly boy, I know the heart beat doesn't mean anything; but I will let him think that for now. LOL I honestly don't care what the sex of our baby as long as the baby and healthy and happy, I will be thankful with whatever God chooses to give us!! Our next appointment is on December 30th for our first tri NT scan! I am of course nervous, but I know that as long as I have faith in God and believe that he is in control that everything will be ok!

It's been a while...

Wow I just realized that it has been while since I posted a blog. Well I can say the reason for that is because I have been very sick, and just not had the energy to do anything! My house is a mess! I know I need to clean it but every time I look at how much I have to do, it makes me even more tired lol. Although I have been very sick, I do have to say though that I am still soo thankful for it! DH is still trying to get used to me not having so much energy, hopefully in the next weeks I will start to feel a little better. We have our first "official" appointment tomorrow! I am so nervous and anxious. Every time I know I am going to have an ultrasound, I am so scared that we are going to get there and they are going to see that the baby has stopped growing and has no heartbeat. I know I just need to have faith in God, and know that he is in control. Which he is, I guess these are just normal feelings that any expectant mom is going to feel. I am still just in awe of the miraculous work that God is doing! I am so thankful for this little miracle that he has given Guy and I!

On Friday, our baby officially became a fetus! YAY!! I am so proud of you baby! Mommy and Daddy can't wait to see you tomorrow!! We hope to see that you are growing well and that everything is going ok! You have no idea how many people in this world can't wait to meet you! They already love you so much, and they haven't even met you yet! We love you baby!

Thanksgiving 2008

Wow, Thanksgiving was awesome. I woke up at 5 cuz I was hungry, I tried to go back to sleep after I ate but I couldn't. So I finally got out of bed at 7:30ish, I finished up some cleaning and started making cinnamon rolls (a tradition that we always do). My sis got there at about 9 so we started on the stuffing, and than we had to make a quick grocery run. I was surprised to see as many people as I did at the grocery store on T-day. When we got back we were able to start on the turkey. We didn't get the turkey in though until almost 11, yikes! My MIL showed up around 12 and that was nice to have some extra help. The turkey we knew wasn't going to be done till around 2:30ish, so we ended up having to cook the ham in the toaster oven LOL. It actually worked we didn't think it was going to but it sure did! Dinner was served around 4 just an hour later than we had originally planned for. Everyone had only started showing up around two. It was really nice to host Thanksgiving, 90% of the people there had never seen our house before so that was a lot of fun. DH and I had planned on telling the rest of the family on Thanksgiving that we were pregnant. So once everyone had gotten their food and was eating, DH stood up and told everyone I have an announce to make. Of course some people in the room already knew, and their faces were funny cuz they were trying not to smile and give it away. But he told everyone "I just wanted you all to know that I am going to be a daddy" and everyone in the room starting cheering. It was the best reaction we have gotten so far! DH's Grandma was so happy she even started to cry! It was so cute, and sweet! We passed around the pick of our first ultrasound, of course it was a just little blob people were looking at but still we wanted to show them. After we told everyone, some people started saying stuff like I thought you looked a little sick when we first showed up, LOL. I was sick, but man I tried my hardest to hide it. After we told everyone though I just let it all go, and I did not feel good at all. I had to go lay down, for a little bit. But overall, yesterday was an amazing day and even though I am exhausted, I can't wait to host another holiday!

On a baby note, I am 7 weeks today!! YAY baby, mommy and daddy are so proud of you, you really have made it a long way! Daddy is so excited to see on Monday for the first time! I hope that we see everything is ok and that you are still growing strong! You have so many people in the world who can't wait to meet you! We love you so much baby! Hang in there!

I've been tagged!

I was tagged!!!!!! Alliebooberz tagged me!

here goes!
Rules:
1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about you.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know they’ve been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

1. I HAVE to have milk and oreo's every single day! I can not go with out them!

2. I am a complete home body and I really don't like hanging out at friends houses.

3. When I was nine years old I thought my best friend and I really had magical powers... I finally stopped believing this in middle school... ( I know, I know)

4. I can make my foot into a fist!! (Dont' believe me?? Just ask and I will post a pic) All my friends think I am half monkey

5. I have really long eye lashes always have; and my birth mother caught my birth father trying to cut my eye lashes cuz he thought they were too long and would get in my eyes. Thankfully my birth mother stopped him before he cut any!

6. When I was only a week old I became an Aunt. My oldest sibling is about 16 years older then me, and she had her baby a week after I was born. Weird I know!

7. I absolutely love to sing!!! My friends are always having to shut me up! At any given time I will just start singing. Ha ha ha Christmas time is the worst!!!

I tag Gooseberry , Cara Elise , Katie , Scully , Mrs. W , Gee , Katie Jo

God is AMAZING!!!

So I got the results of my blood work back today!! My beta's at 17DPO were at 946! I am still in shock! Now that the blood results have confirmed it It is starting to sink in! I am going to be a mommy! I am going to be responsible for someone else's life! I just can't believe it! I am just in awe of God's amazing love and power. To have surgery at 7DPO and still end up pregnant is amazing to me! Am I worried about the surgery and the affects that it may have on the baby? Yes, but I have decided that I am going to have complete faith in God that everything will turn out OK! My first appointment is December 1st! I am so excited, and so incredibly thankful for this wonderful gift that God has given us! I CAN NOT wait to be a parent and share something so wonderful with my DH!!!

Just one more test pic I promise!!!



Here is some pics of how I told DH he was going to be a daddy!!!

OMG!!!!

As you guys can see I found out this morning that I am PREGNANT!!! I am still in shock! God is awesome!! I am sooo thankful for this wonderful miracle he has given us!!!

Here is another one from this morning 11/10/2008

99 Balloons

So this evening when I logged into my Myspace account. [(Yes I am a myspacer.. ; )] I had been notified that I have been given a new sticker my cousin in law. This video right here that I have linked for you, is the most touching, and heart breaking video i have ever seen. God really does work in mysterious ways, and is ALWAYS above doctors and statistics... As long as you have faith God can do anything.. I will warn you... you need tissues!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qILw1iFzmIE

Scars...

Here are some pics of my new scars... I am feeling a little bit better. I am still very sore and my belly button is still very bruised. But I am getting better though that is the good thing. = )

Halloween 2008

Well this Halloween will definitely be a memorable one. I woke up on Friday morning and was not feeling well. The pain in my stomach had gotten worse from the night before. I decided not to go into work and that I would call my doctors office. When I told them my symptoms they wanted me to come in right away. After waiting for what felt like forever in the waiting room, they finally called me back. The doc listened to my symptoms, then he decided to poke and prod me. After ten minutes of this he decides that it is time for me to go to the ER. So I call my husband and told him that the doc wanted me to go to the ER. I get in my truck and start driving to the hospital, on the way there the only thing that kept going through my mind was what if there wrong and it will be nothing again. The reason why I kept thinking this is because most of the time that I got the ER they usually send me home with no explanation of what was the causing the pain. So I get myself checked in to the ER, and call my DH again to update him. There was no reason for him to come to the ER if they were just going to send me home. Well I sat in the waiting of over an hour, they finally called me back. They get an IV started and than the ER doc comes in and asks me about a million questions. He calls the nurse in to draw some blood and send me for a CAT scan. The CAT scan revealed that my appendix was enlarged and that I had a hemorrhagic cyst on my right ovary. Well that's just great. The ER doc tells me that he is sending the surgeon in to come talk to me. So I get on the phone and call DH, my sis, my mom, my friend Brittany, and raskind17 to let them know what is going on. DH drops everything and says he is on his way, my mom says she is leaving work and that she will be there soon; and my friend Brittany says she will be there soon too. The surgeon comes in and talks to me, and for the third time that day I was asked a million questions, and poked and prodded. Ugh it really hurt when they were poking me! Anyways he says that he needs to go talk to surgery and he will be back. He came back in five minutes and told me that they would be operating on me in about 3 hours. My DH finally gets there, he does not show up to pretty sight, I had gotten significantly worse. I was breathing rapidly, I was dry heaving, and my heart rate had shot up to about 140 bpm. That is not good! They got some meds in me to calm me down, it worked for about ten minutes, than the rapid breathing and high heart rate came back. So they moved the surgery up to right then. So I of course am freaking out, my DH is trying to sign all of these forms so he's freaking out, lets just say all around it was a pretty hectic event. When they rolled me back to the OR I remember almost rolling off of the table cuz I was trying to throw up, the anesthesiologist had just given me some medicine so the last thing, I remember hearing was a nurse yelling to get me to lay down cuz this was gonna hit me like a ton of brick. The next thing I remember is waking up in recovery, but I remember looking at the clock, and it was almost three hours later. I asked the nurse how the surgery had taken was anything wrong, she said the surgery only took about an hour and a half, but that they had been trying to wake me up for almost two hours. WOW, that's not scary or anything. Later I would find out that my DH and mom were freaking out in the waiting room, and calling every fifteen minutes to see if I was awake yet. I feel bad, I dunno why it was so hard for me to wake up at least I DID wake up! When I got the room, I was in so much pain I thought I was going to die. The rest of my stay was pretty normal, my DH didn't get any sleep cuz I was waking up every hour to pee. But other than that it was normal. I am home now, I am still in a great deal of pain. Thankfully DH is on Vacation this week so I will always have someone here to help me. I think I will go back to work on either Tuesday or Wednesday depending on how hard it is to walk. That was a horrible experience, and I am so glad that we only have one appendix! I guess the only good thing that came out of this is that they didn't see any endometriosis! So that is a blessing! I am so thankful for all of my friends and my family; and for all of the prayers and well wishes that were sent my way. Lets just say this was a very interesting Halloween.

Can I be completely honest??

I am so annoyed. A friend of mine who is pregnant, is really starting to make me upset. I can understand whining a little bit, but this is getting to be to much. I feel like telling her to just shut up and be thankful for this miracle that God has given you! I haven't said anything though partly because one, I have no idea what it is like to be pregnant and to have morning sickness. Also because I really don't want to seem like a completely heartless person. But when she says things like "I am never going to have another child again" it just really upsets me. Maybe I will take this all back if I ever get to experience pregnancy and see what she is really feeling like. In all honesty it is only 9 months out of your ENTIRE life just be grateful for the morning sickness, because there are thousands of girls who would love to have what you do and wouldn't complain once! Maybe I feel like this because I have been really depressed lately, maybe it is because I am jealous, but I just had to get this off of my chest. If I didn't I was going to explode on her and I did not want to do that! I hope that no one will think less of me. I feel bad feeling like, I know I should not feel like this; I should just be happy for her and just ignore her comments, but I can't help it! I feel like a horrible person, but I am glad that I got this off of my chest. God please help me to get rid of these feelings.

CD 20

Alas here we are again! It is CD 20 and I have yet to get a positive OPK or a temp shift... This is so frustrating! I don't understand why my body just can't work the way it is suppose to! Sorry just had to vent for a second!

S/A Results

Well the results are finally in.... The Results showed that DH has a low sperm count. His count was at 10 million and they like to see it at 30 million. The doctor told me his motility and morphology percentages, but I don't remember them now. All I remember is that only one of them was in the normal range and the rest were under. This is a little depressing. DH feels like everything is his fault now. I have tried to reassure him that I have problems too. Which I do, short LP and not a very strong Ovulation. My doc has ordered another S/A to confirm that DH does in fact have a low sperm count. My doc said that sometimes they go back in the second time and their numbers are normal. Sometime in the next month DH and I will be going back for the second S/A. My doc has put the clomid on hold, until the results of the second S/A come back in. I have to say I am starting to feel like we are even further away from having a baby. I am even more scared that we won't even be able to have kids. I knows that these are irrational fears, but I can't help but feel this way. I am praying with all my might that DH's numbers come back better the second time; and that we can start clomid and finally get our BFP! I know I just need to have faith and be patient. Until next time! God Bless you all!

~T

TTC

So my DH is going in for S/A on Monday. I am nervous. I have no idea why I am so nervous but I am. I am excited at the same time because next month I will be starting my first round of clomid. I am starting to feel very anxious. I have wanted a baby for so long, and now maybe we will finally be able to get pregnant. Than again I am worried because maybe the clomid won't help. I seriously can not stop thinking about babies. For the past two weeks every single night I have had a dream about me having a baby. I think I am starting to become a little too obsessive. I know I just need to relax and not think of it that much; but it doesn't help that right now I have 8 friends who are expecting. So obviously one of the biggest topics everyone talks about when we get together is babies. I am not telling anyone that we are TTC again, because the last time when were TTC and we told everyone it put A LOT of stress on me. Plus every time we saw them and they would ask if we were pregnant, and we said no, it was frustrating. So this time around, my DH and I have decided to keep this between just us. I know this will help not make it as stressful.

Katie Jo

There is this girl that I know from the nest. Her name is Katie Jo and here story is a sad one. Here is her blog if you want to read up on her http://tinyurl.com/53rt89
Everytime I go to her blog to read up on how she is doing I feel guilty. Guilty that she has to go through so much stuff, and because I sit here and I complain about the little things, and than I think of Katie and I feel like such an ungrateful person. She has been through so much, but yet she still has faith, she is still so positive. I feel so sorry for her, She is such a wonderful person. She seriously makes me want to be a better person! I wish that no one would ever have to go through what she is going through. But her faith is amazing. She honestly saved my faith. I was slipping in my faith I was distant from God, and than she starting writing in her blog and I saw the love that she had for God. It was like a light turned on. She brought me back from a cold and lonely life. I pray for her everyday and I have faith that God will get her through this and that God has great plans for her!

So disappointed

So since I was laid off in May we now have no medical insurance. Which means that TTC will have to be put on hold for at least three months. I just found out that one of my friends who I was trying to be pregnant with at the same time is pregnant. I am so happy for her, but I am so sad because I don't think it is going to be easy for us to get pregnant, so I really don't think we will be able to pregnant together, and it makes me sad. I will admit I am also a little jealous, I want nothing more than to be a mother. I know my time will come, I guess I just need to learn to be patient. I just feel like there is this big empty space in my heart, that won't be filled till I am a mother. I will start getting benefits again in August. So there is light at the end of the tunnel, when I last talked to my OB he talked about putting me on Clomid to help my LP lengthen. I can't wait till August!! In August it will be 10 months of actively trying, minus the three we couldn't try. I hope cycle #10 is the one!!

Our House a.k.a. "The Money Pit"

So onto the house... We bought our house in July 2007. The first two months in the house were pretty good. The normal things went on, cleaning, unpacking, putting furniture in the right places, etc. In mid-October I had started laundry on Saturday morning, and was getting ready to run a few errands. As I pass the bathroom I hear this sort of gurgling sound. Since I had not used the bathroom in a while this was pretty confusing to me. So I go into the bathroom to check the mystery noise and our bathtub was filling up with water from the drain!! Ugh I freak out cuz I have no idea where this water is coming from. My husband was at work at the time so of course I am completely clueless as to what to do. Well I turned the washing machine off and the water stopped filling up. After a few hours of poking around with the plumbing DH discovered that our line from the washing machine dumps into the same line as the bath tub does and something was blocking it. We call Roto-rooter, So I pay X amount of $'s to have him try to snake the pipe. They tell us that the blockage is not in the house that it is in the sewer line in the front yard!! How they figured this out we still don't' know cuz they were snaking the wrong pipe! !%@&*# idiots!! That doesn't work, so they call a camera guy out, (very expensive) and he tells us that the line is completely blocked all the way to under the street. They give us a quote of $6000 to fix everything!! I was in tears because my husband and I didn't have that much in savings and I couldn't believe this was happening. I call my FIL, because is the worlds greatest handyman, to come over and see if he can help us so we don't have to pay that much money. He brought his snake over and snaked the pipe that was in the house and what do you know... The tub drained almost instantly! We dug up a little section in the front yard where Roto-rooter had X'd as the problem spot, and the pipe was cracked but again it wasn't the reason the pipes weren't draining. So we did a temporary fix, on that pipe that had the crack in it, and this spring we will be converting the sewer line from it's clay piping to a PVC piping. We spent over $700 for Roto-rooter to do nothing!!! I am so grateful that my FIL came out and fixed the problem for us! If you ever have a plumbing problem I would not use Roto-rooter they will take you for every penny you have!--Problem #2-- In Jan 08' I was sitting at home watching TV on Saturday, on of my weekend rituals, My husband had just got home from work. I look at him and said "Hi". He had a deer in head lights look and was looking towards our fireplace. So I look at the fireplace and oh my gosh! I have no Idea how I hadn't noticed it earlier, but there was water trickling down the front side of our fireplace! The left side of our fireplace was completely soaked. DH inspects it a little closer and he thinks it coming from the roof. Now we live in CO, so of course the roof was snow packed so he couldn't go up to inspect it. When he finally was able to go up there, he discovered that there was a hole in the base of the fireplace on the roof and that there were pieces of shingles missing from the roof... So yea you guessed it we now have to re-roof this summer, and try and fix the fireplace. The previous owners had put shingles on this part of the house, that according to code are the wrong type. Ugh I swear the people who lived in this house before us had no idea what they were doing what-so-ever! Needless to say we can't a vacation this summer because of the sewer line, and roof projects.. Blah, O well.... Hopefully after this summer we won't have anymore MAJOR problems happen..

Hello

Well let me introduce myself. My name is Trista, I am 22 years old. Last July I got married to my Childhood sweetheart. We also bought our first house last summer. So my life in a nut shell is um... Crazy I guess, and Very unpredictable. When I was 2, my Sister and I were adopted by my Half-Uncle and his Wife. I do know my Birth parents. My birth mother is well, interesting. It is amazing how much of me is like her even though I wasn't raised by her. I have my birth fathers facial features and birth mothers' body. My Sis is exactly the opposite, she has my birth mothers facial features and birth fathers body. LOL My sister and I have 11 half sibling's we have never met before. My birth mother only had two children (my sis and I); my birth father on the other hand has 13 children. He is A LOT older than my birth mother too. He is almost 60. Yes I realize he is old enough to be my grandfather.... I am told that my oldest sibling is in their late 30's. I do wish I could met my other brother's and sister's, but my birth father is not that reliable and doesn't know where most of them are. Hopefully one day I can afford to hire a P.I. so I can find some of them!-- I got into nursing school fall of 06' but couldn't afford to go.... So now I am trying to get my C.N.A. certification; in hope that I can get a job with a hospital and they will help pay for my schooling. For now I am a Receptionist. I really don't like it, but I know that it isn't forever. My husband and I have known each other for 14 years now! We first met in church, I was 8 and he was 9. We were "bf/gf" from 3rd grade till 6Th grade, (yes I know you really can't call that dating but we were together) we broke up in middle school (or as my Husband would say I broke up with him ☺); then my senior year of high school we got back together and have been inseparable ever since ♥. Moving on to our house.... Boy did we get ourselves into a big mess. The house we purchased is a fixer upper, we knew going into this that it would be a lot of work... But we never imagined it would be THIS much work... I will go into details later but lets just say ALOT of problems have creeped up that we never anticipated on happening. Well I think that is it for the introduction. I will be blogging often, my life is pretty entertaining (or so I am told) so come back often!

♥ Trista